Sorry for myself

So I finished an entry. I was saying how I wanted to stay in bed all day and cry! I am experiencing the aftermath of a traumatic car accident. I have not been home for two months! I'm healing quickly but have too many slow healing Injuries to live normally yet. So today I wake up feeling helpless, sad and depressed. I then make it worse by feeling guilty that I'm so self centered. It's all about me! Looking to make a clear path out from my bed to the door I find a picture drawn by Alexa when she was about 5. It's her and another female, I took it to be me, the height was indicative of adulthood. So letx and I are standing under a black cloud in the pouring rain. But we're smiling and each have an umbrella and bows on our shoes and in our hair! Fuck the rain we're smiling!  She always does, and I'm known for it as well! She smiled from here nightmare of an illness and I from my hospital bed as well. So thank you five year old alexa

The irony is that after having my stiff upper lip epiphany I and recording it via blog I lost the entire thing. It was so much more entertaining than this! Fucked sometimes the universe feels fucked